Sometimes things are difficult to write, this is one of them. Last week we buried my grandson. I never got the chance to know him. He was here, then he was gone, far too quickly. Before anyone had a chance to coo with him, change a diaper, wonder how long he could keep on crying. He was gone, in quietness. Gone were the great plans. Plans for a great future. Plans for a prolific sports career. Plans for following in his father’s footsteps. Preparations made now become a short memory. Travis Floyd Taylor was laid to rest while those of us left behind stand in wonderment, full of questions and not enough answers. He was God’s creation. After 21 weeks in the womb God took him home. I never got the chance to know him. I never had a chance to get attached to him. No bouncing on my knee, no calls for ” Bumpa”. But God knew him. He knew him from the moment of conception and even before, laid out a plan for his short life. He was perfect and wonderfully made as only God knows perfect. For such a time as this, God created him. He had a purpose and a mission from God and when that mission was complete, God took him home. No more work to do. Time to enjoy the fullness of God’s grace and glory.
Questions always abound when one is taken before they can enjoy a full life. But, what is a full life? Is it full of years, growing old or is it living in the fullness of God’s measure, not man’s. Is a full life simply completing your purpose in God’s plan and then being called home where things are infinitely better. Perhaps Travis fulfilled his purpose while still in the womb. Perhaps his life was short and sweet, in impact, to live on in those directly impacted by him, his story to live on and influence those with whom it is shared. God’s plans are not man’s plans, God’s thoughts are not mans thoughts. Perhaps the whole purpose of Travis life was to get the parent’s focus wholly on God, test those around on their full commitment to Christ and His work, to be an object and example of God’s grace and mercy for those that don’t know Christ.
Being mindful that Job lost all he had, including his children, just to show his dependence and commitment to God. Mike and Raven were already being tested, with bridges to cross. The hospital performs abortions and I assume would, no doubt, make suggestions as well as other non-believers to that effect. The answer was an emphatic no, they would trust God no matter what. Well done good and faithful servants. After a while they had just returned, Mike, Raven and Brenna, from a fun family get-away weekend, one more small family time before the family got a little more crowded, when Raven went to her scheduled OB appointment. Suddenly they are faced with the fact that Travis is no longer with us. And before that can register mom is beset with life threatening complications. As an extended family we hit our knees in prayer and waited. Travis would be still-born on Wednesday, February 27, 2013.
Questions, worries, more questions. As only God can do, He spoke a Word, given to a trusted sister, Glynda at WingsofProphecy the next day of which in part, “There are times of stripping away that must take place in the lives of My chosen ones and only I know how to accomplish that which I desire and how to best do it in each of you. ” and “Fear not when people or things are stripped from your lives, but praise Me instead – praise Me that I have a mighty purpose for you and My wisdom is far greater than your own. Praise Me and cling tightly to My hand and I will guide you through this time of great changes in your life.“
God has a purpose and a time and a reason. Travis’ legacy will live on. He was created for such a time as this, that his story should be told. That God, in His infinite mercy and grace should use that tiny little man to craft others for the work of Christ through his short little life. It’s how we embrace the message and carry on the work that matters most. Travis is with Jesus now, God determined long ago that he wasn’t going to have to endure the hardships and travails coming on this land. Do you have that faith? Are you free to trust, what ever the circumstance? Is Christ even a part of your life? In these times of uncertainty and unrest, God is in control, His is the purpose that needs to be followed. We are all sinners, but some of us have given that up to Jesus and He is faithful to forgive us for the asking. Have you? Take yourself to Jesus, repent, take up His free gift for you and enjoy the same confidence.